Never looking back

You were like my brother
You stood up for me whenever there was trouble
You held my hand when I was afraid
You protected me from everything
We were 5 when we meet
We always had a blast
Everytime I got nervous or scared
I stood behind you and held tight
Never let anything happen
When something did, you were there
We used to play with toy guns
And we always got one another
We used to have a shaving cream fight
And always got into trouble playing in mud
We used to stay up late and talk to each other through the window
Even when we were grounded
I stayed a night, we used to play school
Until one day, I came over
Do you remember the last day?
It was a scary day
You held me down, and I scream
You covered my mouth and closed the door
Do you feel my pain?
Cuz I do till this day
It never leaves my head

Never enough for you..

I lay under the stars
As I see your face in the sky
I close my eyes and ill cry
We went our separate ways
Long ago, we had our fights
But always made it through
Things changed so fast
It was hard to accept
Guess sometimes things are better left unsaid and go different ways..
Even when its hard to let go
And forget the memories we once shared

But I'm saying my goodbye
Knowing its a best thing to do
I'm moving on and not looking back
And Everytime I do, it hurts so much inside
I know I'm strong but it will take some time to heal
Forgetting someone who meant something and get thrown back and forth in lies
Who you gave so much too, throws it away like it meant nothing
Just wish you could see in me, I've tried my best.
I loved you with all I could, I cared enough to keep fighting for you
But there's so much a person could give, to you it wasn't enough.

Late at night..

Late at night as i lay in bed,

As many thoughts rush through my head,

I think about the weak and strong,

I question all the right from wrong,
I wonder who could i really be,

I think of what’s gotten into me,

I hang out with the entirely wrong crowd,

All these thoughts i am thinking out loud,
What is this life i am in?

My head is now beginning to spin,

I pace my room without a sound,

Walking in circles round and round,
All these questions i have to ask,

I can never finish a single task,

My heart is beating really fast,

Asking myself will this really last
Nothing i do feels like it’s right,

Even though i am very bright,

Why does it feel this way?,

The exact same thing every day
So here i am thinking in my head,

All the negative things i’ve said,

This is not the real me,

It definitely cannot be
Sitting here thinking for a while,

I find myself beginning to smile,

All these emotions i have to express,

Letting go of all this stress,
Sitting here in the rain,

Feeling all of this pain,

Like a flower i begin to wilt,

Holding onto all this guilt,
While falling asleep i begin to cry,

Thinking about how hard i try,

As I am beginning to find my way,

I think who am i today
Thinking about all the nights i cried,

Holding all these feelings inside,

Now getting all them off my chest,

Doing good, only hoping for the best,
My life is like a story told,

My heart is something that i hold,

It’s not something on my sleeve,

As many things as i achieve
I think about all the positive things,

Hurt feels like a big bee sting,

Life isn’t something I can find in a tree,

It’s only what’s inside of me
Late at night as i lay in bed,

All these thoughts rushing through my head,

I no longer think about the weak and strong,

Nor do i question the right from wrong.