It's so frustrating!!

Yesterday I had a seizure while I was in my boyfriends bed. This wasn't the first time and now I think it's scary him away. I went to the hospital they only gave me couple medications to calm me down and done a cat scan. They said the shunt for my hyrocephalous is fine. I got no medical now because of somethings that had to fuck me over.. so now I'm screwed!  I love my boyfriend to death and I hope he doesn't back away. At this point I really really need him by my side more than anybody else.. I just wish I knew what is causing my seizures don't want someone to wake me up and see me gone. I'm so scared and lost right now. Just wish I knew what I could do to help my self!! And I don't want to worry about things between me and my boyfriend just because of my seizures or my hyrocephalous.. Just wish he could been here tonight with me just to make sure it doesn't happen again while I sleep but he's not. :( I love you Justin and my family